You never really mean to stop blogging, it just seems to happen, one week goes by, then a month, then another month, then six months, a year, etc . . . I haven't made it to six months yet but am feeling the embarrassment of not keeping up after realizing I haven't officially blogged since March.
Sadly, there have been many great occasions to blog and many topics that have soared through my mind. Since my last blog post, I experienced a wonderful Easter with a new church family (and new job), and traveled through April, a highlighted season of grief as I remember my mom passing away 15 years ago and my brother (10 years ago). We sped through May (and Mother's Day -- another tricky one), our 11th wedding anniversary (yea!), and have arrived at today -- and it's almost June.
The past few months have been filled with many joyous moments in our new "home" state. And God has continued to show himself faithful. Yet still, in reflecting on the blur of the past few months, the theme of grief stands out.
We are still grieving the loss of face-to-face friendships in Virginia, as we continue to adjust to Nevada. This grief, is different yet similar to the death of loved ones. It's hard to exactly compare these but I find similar emotions in both storylines. Both a move and a death represent significant change -- and this means life will be different. Grief is defined as "a multi-faceted response to loss, particularly to the loss of someone or something to which a bond was formed" and fits so many categories of life change, although it often only gets assigned to death.
Grief is a mysterious thing -- almost like a riddle that has no answer. And although the sorrow in my life is deep in many ways, I am, in a strange way, glad it is part of my story. These experiences have formed so much of who I am today. I often find myself wondering would I even be in Nevada if . . . but God knew.
Daily, God shapes and reshapes the grieving parts of my heart for his glory. There are still many tender spots that need lots of work that only God can do.
Most recently, the pastor (Bill McCready) at our church in Nevada, shared a message of hope related to grief. He shared Jesus' response to the death of his friend Lazarus -- a response that highlighted Christ deity, humanity, power, and authority over death. This was a great reminder that God understands our grief and through that understanding, provides us hope for fully restored hearts. It is this hope that I continue to trust in as we continue this journey and testimony of faith -- now in Nevada.
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Typically posts on this page are written by Jennifer Brown and often include fun stories about Josh as well. Occasionally, Josh might post too (when he feels daring!)