A delayed update: The Hope-o-coaster

So sorry to our friends, family, and followers for leaving you hanging on that last post. 
Once again our results were negative. Oddly, I wasn't surprised or nearly as sad as we were after the unsuccessful IVF. I think overall, we (especially me -Jenn), were feeling pretty lethargic after the spring's big hope let down. We were in a funk for a while — since then we have had some hope recovery.

I didn't realize how hard the last few months had been until I went to a doctor's appointment to begin the process of our second IUI this year (so far we have done one IVF, and now two IUIs). Josh was busy that day - and it really was a pretty routine check, so I went by myself for the ultrasound to see if I was ready for another round. Usually going places alone isn't a big deal, but this time it was particularly hard as all the emotions of the past few months hit me while sitting in the doctors office once again. I am sure this doctor's office has seen a few emotional ladies, but I still didn't really want to have a breakdown and tried pretty hard to stay calm. These few moments really surprised me though. 

I left the office with my new schedule of dates, meds and appointments for the next few weeks of fertility medications and plans - still feeling a bit overwhelmed.

During the next few weeks, my body decided it didn't want to respond to the meds (Clomid) so the actual IUI procedure kept being delayed and my medications kept increasing (changed to Bravelle)

On Monday, September 21 we went in for our second IUI procedure this year. At the end the doctor said, "Think fertile thoughts" - which I thought to be particularly odd and entertaining all at the same time.
So I tried thinking positive. :)

So hear we are,  once again sitting in the waiting and hoping window. This time (unlike the last IUI) my hope quotient has returned. We are hopeful for what might be in a few weeks. At the same time we are debating if this is our last attempt which is weird. How long do we stay on this hope roller-coaster of medical fertility treatments. Is it time to move on to adoption? These are all questions that linger. 

Thanks for your continued support and prayers on this life adventure. 


But as for me, I will hope continually.
And will praise You yet more and more.
— Psalm 71:14