Jenn Brown Adventures
  • Home
    • Send a Message
  • Grieving On
  • Jennifer Brown
  • JourneywithJosh
  • Josh Brown
  • Traveling A Browns

Grieving On . . . 

Grief doesn't end but rather continues as part of our story

Hope on the Horizon

11/30/2019

0 Comments

 
Sitting on my friend’s land, overlooking the Wilson’s Creek valley I begin a conversation, “Lord restore my hope in you. It’s hard to see your hope right now. It’s hard to see you through the clouds that seem to surround me. Through the grief.”

At that moment, a friend from Nevada texted wanting to chat. We haven’t talked much recently but I was free and she wanted to share something with me. So we talked.

She shared that she believe one of Josh’s message I shared earlier in our story is for me. It’s a roadmap on how to continue - to continue our story not just the story of grief and heartache but also our story of love and relationship.

To speak about it, to write about to show people the value of life, relationship and grieving well.

Of course, my eyes flooded with tears.

My heart hopes is that this is true - that our story, Josh and I’s story, is not one to be forgotten, that the story God is writing in my life today still has an audience - even if it is me.


I still often get caught on the how and where, etc. Somewhat lost in the details. But the path because a little clearer...

Maybe God wants me worried less about the how and where but instead on who. It’s God and me and it’s a God who splits the seas, it’s God who makes paths and creates all that we see. It’s a journey of trust, a reminder once again to keep hoping. Perhaps, it’s following those same words from Frozen 2 - “do the next right thing.”

Even after all this I want to say “But How” even though I just answered that.

“Follow me”

“Trust in me”

Those are the words I hear back.

Hearing God’s confirmation doesn’t make any of this grief, sorrow or pain easier but it’s something to hold on to for this day. A day that started with me asking God to restore my hope.
Hope that feels like it has been stomped on by goats.*

For those of you following along, can I ask for your prayers for wisdom as I grieve on and navigate the uncertain waters of what’s next?

​With a grateful heart - Jenn


*(This came to mind because where I am staying the have goats that my dogs were barking at and running by during my morning conversations.)
0 Comments



Leave a Reply.

    Author: Jenn

    Hi! It's Jenn Brown, writing my story that is now slightly different as we enter a season of new grief. On September 30, 2019, my dear husband Josh passed away after battling brain cancer. 

    Life for me weirdly continues on and I'm continuing to share my heart and journey here in this space as a way to process and hopefully encourage others in their grief journey also. It's not easy for any of us.   

    Read more about Josh's cancer battle here.

    Follow me: #jennbrownadventures
    #grievingon

    Archives

    March 2025
    December 2024
    October 2024
    September 2024
    August 2024
    June 2024
    May 2024
    April 2024
    January 2024
    October 2023
    September 2023
    August 2023
    May 2023
    April 2023
    February 2023
    January 2023
    November 2022
    October 2022
    September 2022
    August 2022
    May 2022
    March 2022
    February 2022
    January 2022
    November 2021
    October 2021
    September 2021
    August 2021
    July 2021
    June 2021
    May 2021
    April 2021
    March 2021
    February 2021
    January 2021
    December 2020
    October 2020
    September 2020
    August 2020
    July 2020
    June 2020
    May 2020
    April 2020
    March 2020
    February 2020
    January 2020
    December 2019
    November 2019
    October 2019

    Categories

    All
    GriefTravel
    Month 1
    Month 4
    Month 5

    RSS Feed

Have an awesome day!
Want a website like this? Contact Jenn she'll help make one for you. 
​

Have a question? E-mail us . 

  • Home
    • Send a Message
  • Grieving On
  • Jennifer Brown
  • JourneywithJosh
  • Josh Brown
  • Traveling A Browns